Dear Lord,
I feel so lonely. I need your help; I need your love to be saved or I'll go straight to Hell. It's so hard to resist the temptations. My sever loneliness is becoming a nightmare for me.
Set me free of this pain, of this loneliness, of my crazy thoughts. I'm fighting so hard with me. I don’t want to do some thing you don’t like. But I'm losing my sanity, my faith, my chastity, and I'm losing me.
I know you have given me things more than I deserve. But I can't feel grateful about them. Why is that?
Why can't he shower me with love so that I don’t suffer much? Is it a test of yours that he doesn’t give me love as much as I need? Oh lord, it's not fair. It's so hard for me; it's more than I can endure. Please help me out. My mind is heavy with crazy thoughts. My heart is thirsty of love. My eyes fill up with tears and my heart breaks so badly when I can't relinquish its thirst.
Dad, how could you do this to me? How could you leave me? How could you be so far away from me and so close to sky? How can you see me suffer so much?
I miss you. Isn’t it funny I miss someone I don’t even remember? Isn’t it ridiculous that I crave for some one's arms that were never open and warm for me? Isn’t it absurd that I always turn to you when I feel I need a man's love and emotional support? Yes, indeed it is. Well, my life is a ridiculous joke.
I forgive you for what you did to me, for the spot your loss dug into my heart. You, too, forgive me if I lost me so that we are even!
A little left of my patience,
Narcis
Celestial Gift
The peerless emotion
In high speed and motion
Switch voyage from sight
Then it gets to the ocean
Toward the heart it departs
Penetrates Veins and Arts
To every inch it drives
Get residence in the heart
Acting like a conjunction
Merging the Two, its function
The Lover and Beloved
Getting allied on junction
Outstanding Gift of God
Donated to earthy mud
Some will face it and some not
Foe the latter it seems odd
But the former is drunk
In Beloved He is sunk
Raising His hands to sky
Not help having night cry
If beloved getting sick
For this sickness He will die
In love's ocean you need dare
On barbwire walking bare
Tackle hardships encountered
If you care to be in pair
Like the Two parallel lines
Keeping pace but never binds
Shifting to be the rail's wings
Spirituality's minds
By a colleague who prefers to stay anonymous
Narcis